Cell was in my house today. Went to church to fetch them to my house, had pizza for dinner. Got distracted during the sermon today..cos Jeremy was confusing me with all his questions about religion. I mean..I don't blame him lah..it's always good to analyse stuff together. But not during service I guess. For a few mintues my faith wavered. Till now I can't find it back. I'm badly confused now.

I'm not exactly feeling stressed..it's just a feeling of leading an aimless life. Simple yet unanswerable questions start popping up in my head again..like why God created us..who are those who are entitled to a place in heaven..many many more. And questions unrelated to religion as well. What exactly do I want man..why am I so fickle minded..and why am I living under the pressure of people. Why do I mind so much about what others see and think..how exactly am I supposed to live my life.

I know that God exists. I know that He promised to give me strength, health, wealth, comfort..everything I ask for. I know that Jesus died on the cross for me. I know what the Bible tells me. But sometimes I don't see the impact. It's not as if I'm unholy..but I just don't see it.

I don't feel like going to school on monday to face the world. Maybe I should just hibernate at home.

I just pray that God will be real in my life once again.